Why is living so difficult?

I’ll tell you why, if it wasn’t for the government spending untold’s of money on ridiculous projects we probably wouldn’t be in so much debt.

I was driving around today, having a look at petrol prices, on station was selling their petrol for 219 per gallon, that’s a lot compared to the 117 it used to be many moons ago. so why is it going up? you’ll find hundreds of different answers to that question, so no-one really knows. Going back to the Government, they decide to spend our money (tax payers) on projects that really at the end of the day don’t benefit us at all as a nation, one example being the London Dome, built for the dawn of the millennium, 12 years later, Its just an eye sore, no-one even uses it anymore, Last year our Government decided it would be a good Idea to spend millions of dollars on a Waka (boat) for the Rugby World cup so the teams and cor prates and players can go for who knows what. well its been a few months now, and its now useless. so millions of dollars gone to waste, now what? in order to recover the debt the Government has put on us the prices of living goes up, you’d think our wages would too but sadly truth is, you have to work harder on next to little income, rent is harder to pay, buying new clothes becomes something of a chore rather then a hobby, buying food is now spending your whole wages in a couple of days. 

I don’t like the way things have turned, things were much simpler when the cost of living was at a good balance. you could work hard one week and get rewarded by being able to go on holiday somewhere in the islands, today, ya work hard, pay rent and work harder to spend something at your local dairy. If the Government were a little wiser on their spending and ask the people first, this nation would be a lot better, because that’s what Government is all about, Isn’t it? clearly not. I mean why do need to buy 10 brand new BMW’s for your staff, don’t they have cars of their own? If only every job came with a brand new BMW I’d never leave, But instead don’t think about the people first and see how we, the tax payers feel about it, and whether or not its worth spending that little extra, they go ahead and do it, then we find out on the news that the Government have spent $$$,$$$,$$$ this many dollars on something that would not even benefit us in any way. 

why can’t our nation be about the people, rather making the nation look good to other people overseas, we don’t need a huge billion dollar boat, or 10 BMW’s, so why put ourselves through more debt, one word, Greed. not only our country but other upper class countries like America, UK, Australia, etc they all have debt, our country are borrowing 300,000,000 per week. where is it coming from? who knows. but I know one thing, if the Government doesn’t change its ways, there’s no hope in this world, there will be more homeless, more unemployed, more suicides, more crime, more then there already is today. 

do you wanna live in this world? I sure hell don’t, but like many others, we can’t do anything about it. 


should love be persued, or should love find us?

Either way someone out there on this planet, is persuing someone esle to recieve love, right? 

I’m in this particular pickle myself, wether I should persue love of someone I am most fond of, or should I let love find me, being, a lovely girl wants me as their potential partner. I havent been luckiest when it comes to dating, finding out later on that the girl already has a partner, or their just not in my age limits. but there is this one girl in my life Whome I love to be around, I like the fact I can be myself around her and laugh and care for her, I’d literally do anything for her. The problem is, She doesnt know how I feel, I really wish she knew how I felt about her.

A little snapshot of myself

I came from a small country called England, I was born there from 15th of May 1988 and lived there for 10 years, I had a great time back home, with so many things to do, like theme parks and rides, and watching our local football team not far from where I lived. and every weekend as a family we’d all celebrate each others birthdays, so we’d never run out of parties.and every Christmas, without fail, we’d all get together to my Nan’s house and have Christmas dinner and crackers and heaps of games, of course those are now just mere memories, as 10 years later my mum, dad, my brother and I all made a big decision to move away and come to New Zealand, where I am living my new life today.


Its been almost 12 years now that I’ve been in NZ, and I can tell you now that I can finally call this place my home. When I arrived I had no idea what I was to expect, what shy 10 going on 11 year old boy would? I had to make new friends, new memories, and of course a new life. I was at the stage in my life where I was figuring out who I was as a person and what I wanted to be. I had it rough in High school, with no friends, couldnt join any sports or clubs. I was left to myself alot isolating myself from reality, I was pretty keen to shut everything out of my life.

my new job, my new lifestyle

I wasnt untill I started thinking with my head and not my heart that I ended up in a bit of trouble. A year ago from now, I crashed my car into a power pole, wrecking my car and breaking a passengers foot in the process, this action got my arrested and put into the police cells.

what felt like hours they let me out of the cell to go through the interview room so I could tell the police what had happend. It wasnt untill I got the court date that I thought my life was over, I often wished it was at that moment. I got some help from some of my friends from a church I used to go to that I managed to get a good lawyer to give me advice on what to do I was so lucky. When i think about it today, I dont think it was luck that was on my side it was something else.

I got released with a minimal 130 hours community service, one other friend of mine from the church worked at a faith based youth orginization called Te Ora Hou, and she’d suggested that I complete the hours there, that was, for me, the best decision that i had ever made.

As a part of my hours, I had to stay alongside one of the leaders who run the after school programme called clubs on monday’s, I enjoyed this kind of work, and suggested I stick around after I completed all my hours, I did, and also got involved in some of the school programmes and became a teacher aid in a space of 6 months. I wanted to know more about what its like to be a youth worker, I was excited about all the things I was learning I had to learn more and excell my skill in this area. My workmates encouraged me to go into study for this year to a course called praxis, I’m now in my 6th month of the course and have learned so much about youth work and about myself.

This is truley the best year Ive ever had knowing that I have a really big strength in working with young people and being an inspiration and a role model in their lives, teaching them skills and using those skills in their own lives, wether it be at school, or at home. I’m glad I am where I am now, and I thank God everyday for he brought me to this life and has stretched my knowlegde and given me a purpose in this life.

thanks for reading. Hope you enjoy. there will be more soon 🙂

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